Honesty Time

People automatically ask how you are, it’s just what you do isn’t it? No matter what the situation, you ask how someone is. It’s human nature.
I’m too afraid to answer with anything other than ‘I’m ok’
If I admit that I’m not ok then I might just fall apart and if I fall apart and cry then I might not be able to stop. What happens if I can’t stop? I have to be strong, I have to be coping.

Well it’s honesty time. I’m not doing ok. I’m not strong and I’m not ok. I am really struggling and quite frankly I have no idea how to get myself up. Every day I feel more frustrated. Every night I dread having to try and sleep.
I’m fed up with sounding so miserable all of the time.
Apparently it gets easier, I can’t see it at the moment. I feel like I am living in pure hell.

I have always said I am a big believer in everything happening for a reason, and I still believe that, however I am yet to find why this had to happen to me, to my family. It’s just not fair. I don’t know how to find the answers that are there.

Now I’m going to go, scream and cry my heart out and hope that tomorrow the sun shines, even just a little bit.


2 thoughts on “Honesty Time

  1. Sometimes the best thing to do is scream & yell & cry! Get it all out, its ok to feel angry & upset. Hopefully after a good cry you’ll start to feel more positive again. xxxxx

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s